you're looking good today

Hey pretty boy, are you okay? I'm kinda worried. Hope you're fine.

Thu, 09 May 2013 15:25:06 +0200

hey anon! i’m sorry, i haven’t been on tumblr much. the treatment is pretty intense, so i’m just taking it easy. :)

if you want to talk, you can always add me on skype! it’s spacepilot10 (don’t laugh).

STILL ALIVE! i honestly just don’t know what else to say since life has been pretty uneventful...

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 11:10:00 +0200

STILL ALIVE! i honestly just don’t know what else to say since life has been pretty uneventful lately but. yes. i’m still alive.

OH I DID GET INTO ART SCHOOL WHICH? YAY! times are still a quite rough but it seems like things are finally starting to work out.

survived another week. i’m not doing very good at the moment but it’s definitely been...

Sun, 24 Feb 2013 15:49:03 +0100

survived another week. i’m not doing very good at the moment but it’s definitely been worse. i’m not really feeling therapy anymore and i really want to quit. not sure if that’d be the best thing to do though. hm.

basically it’s a lot of pressure. everyone wants something from me. they accuse me of things that i’ve never even said or done. they constantly relate everything back to my gender. i’m worried they might mess with my medical transition. i’ve also come to know things about my parents that i never wanted to know. some of which might have ruined a perfectly healthy relationship.

i’m stressed out. i want to sleep. i just really don’t like this at all.

goodday people of tumblr. i’m still alive and i’m going to get coffee with yasmin in a...

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 17:00:15 +0100

goodday people of tumblr. i’m still alive and i’m going to get coffee with yasmin in a bit (at 6:30pm) (coffee with dinner) (and by dinner i mean a sandwich that has been sitting in the fridge at the grocery store the entire day) (good times).

beatrixpotterlife: (via Run away! by ~Ephreet on deviantART)

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 16:58:17 +0100

beatrixpotterlife:

(via Run away! by ~Ephreet on deviantART)

eating two bagels for brunch was a bad decision. my stomach feels like it’s going to burst oh...

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 10:08:01 +0100

eating two bagels for brunch was a bad decision. my stomach feels like it’s going to burst oh god. (my dad bought them for me.) (i didn’t want to be rude by not eating it.) (hhhhh.)

Photo

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 10:06:15 +0100

ps remember to never under any circumstances !!! out her. ever. that’s about the shittiest...

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 22:47:58 +0100

ps remember to never under any circumstances !!! out her. ever. that’s about the shittiest thing you can do. i know a lot of people mean well, but it just doesn’t work that way.

(you probably knew that already.) (but just a friendly reminder.)

[Part 1] Hey pretty boy, could you give me some advice? How did your friends and family react when you told them you feel like a boy? I met an old friend and she told me she's transgendered. That's no problem for me, it's not like her character changed because of that. But.. It's so weird if someone you've known for years suddenly tells you this after you haven't had contact for a pretty long time and I'm always scared, that I will call her by her by her boy-name or something like that,

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 22:36:00 +0100

[Part 2] and that I’ll offend her by saying something stupid without thinking. Ugh, idk, this will probably sound dumb. I’m happy for her, that she’s finally accepting herself. But.. Well, it’s just weird and I feel a bit insecure about that. I really don’t want to hurt or offend her. Do you maybe have some tips for me?

hey! but of course.

i got lots of different reactions. some people saw it coming, others didn’t understand. they thought i was changing, or that i was going against the word of god. however, it seems like you’re doing good! you’re trying, and honestly, that’s the best thing you can do.

you’re going to offend her. you’re going to call her by her birth name. you really can’t avoid those things. my best friend was happy for me when i came out to her, but she made those mistakes as well. of course it stung, but i understood. we’ve been friends for over a decade. it would be silly of me to expect her to use all the right names and pronouns all at once.

just try. eventually it’ll become a habit. most of my friends (the ones that didn’t abandon me, at least) are used to it now. i’m a guy to them. it just takes some getting used to, and that’s fine. i’m sure she’ll understand.

(also! personally, i don’t like being told “you pass very well today”. i’d much rather hear “you look handsome today” or “wow, that shirt looks great on you” or something like that. i’d be careful with things like that. don’t tell her that “i wouldn’t be able to tell if i didn’t know you!” but instead compliment her on her hair or clothes.)

it amuses me how the only way the treatment has helped me so far was by being doing so little to...

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 11:10:00 +0100

it amuses me how the only way the treatment has helped me so far was by being doing so little to improve my situation that i’ve taken matters into my own hands again (applying to a new school, trying to get a job, spending more time at my dad’s, etc).

well, it’s something.

What? Why does that make you rude? Your therapist doesn't really sound professional..

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 11:02:00 +0100

well, i guess they aren’t. i go to group therapy where multiple therapists are present and the whole point of it seems to be to give it a “family” feel rather than a “hospital” feel.

that being said i think it’s bull for them to be offended when i say “when are we going to work on my social anxiety” or “talking about my problems doesn’t help”. i get that i should probably be more grateful, but it’s not their job to teach me to be polite.

(most of them are nice though but come on. grow a pair. and these are the people that are supposed to work with kids who have anger issues and issues with authority. sigh.) (i probably sound like an asshole but i’m just.) (i’m not a fan of psychiatry.) (not a fan at all.)

i’m still not sure how thinking about all that’s wrong with me for six hours straight is...

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 10:38:00 +0100

i’m still not sure how thinking about all that’s wrong with me for six hours straight is going to help me (it isn’t)

(and the only time i actually mention “but what about my social anxiety” they get mad at me and tell me i’m being rude) (ugh)

hhhhh i really do not want to go to therapy today.

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 10:29:10 +0100

hhhhh i really do not want to go to therapy today.

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Thu, 07 Feb 2013 10:27:54 +0100

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iguanamouth: some days are better than others

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 10:26:42 +0100

iguanamouth:

some days are better than others

hipananus: ♪

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 10:23:32 +0100

hipananus:

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henrychristianslane: Detail of a painting I’m working on for...

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 09:56:53 +0100

henrychristianslane:

Detail of a painting I’m working on for the group exhibition next week.

Come along if your in Auckland, New Zealand.

https://www.facebook.com/events/415239591892931/?ref=ts&fref=ts

feeling really uncomfortable with my body and face hhhh. i’m kind of starting to accept the...

Sun, 03 Feb 2013 20:12:37 +0100

feeling really uncomfortable with my body and face hhhh. i’m kind of starting to accept the fact that i’m not super skinny anymore but i’m just. agh. self love is hard. how do people do it.

(i’m going to try to find a job, maybe i’ll feel better about myself when i actually feel like i’ve accomplished something.) (also running.) (i should start running.)

dewzilla: Danse Macabre by Skia

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 23:00:29 +0100

dewzilla:

Danse Macabre by Skia

i’m going to be staying at my dad’s for the weekend. the cops came by my mom’s...

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 17:17:02 +0100

i’m going to be staying at my dad’s for the weekend. the cops came by my mom’s last night and ah she’s really upset (there was a robbery a little further down the street, but considering how gross our kitchen is they started asking questions).

it’ll be nice here though. i think it’ll be nice. i’m trying not to worry about my weight too much. my dad cooks really healthy meals anyway so that’ll be okay. i’m also going to paint tomorrow gosh i’m excited.