Anonymoushey anon! i’m sorry, i haven’t been on tumblr much. the treatment is pretty intense, so i’m just taking it easy. :)
if you want to talk, you can always add me on skype! it’s spacepilot10 (don’t laugh).
STILL ALIVE! i honestly just don’t know what else to say since life has been pretty uneventful lately but. yes. i’m still alive.
OH I DID GET INTO ART SCHOOL WHICH? YAY! times are still a quite rough but it seems like things are finally starting to work out.
survived another week. i’m not doing very good at the moment but it’s definitely been worse. i’m not really feeling therapy anymore and i really want to quit. not sure if that’d be the best thing to do though. hm.
basically it’s a lot of pressure. everyone wants something from me. they accuse me of things that i’ve never even said or done. they constantly relate everything back to my gender. i’m worried they might mess with my medical transition. i’ve also come to know things about my parents that i never wanted to know. some of which might have ruined a perfectly healthy relationship.
i’m stressed out. i want to sleep. i just really don’t like this at all.
goodday people of tumblr. i’m still alive and i’m going to get coffee with yasmin in a bit (at 6:30pm) (coffee with dinner) (and by dinner i mean a sandwich that has been sitting in the fridge at the grocery store the entire day) (good times).
eating two bagels for brunch was a bad decision. my stomach feels like it’s going to burst oh god. (my dad bought them for me.) (i didn’t want to be rude by not eating it.) (hhhhh.)
ps remember to never under any circumstances !!! out her. ever. that’s about the shittiest thing you can do. i know a lot of people mean well, but it just doesn’t work that way.
(you probably knew that already.) (but just a friendly reminder.)
Anonymous[Part 2] and that I’ll offend her by saying something stupid without thinking. Ugh, idk, this will probably sound dumb. I’m happy for her, that she’s finally accepting herself. But.. Well, it’s just weird and I feel a bit insecure about that. I really don’t want to hurt or offend her. Do you maybe have some tips for me?
i got lots of different reactions. some people saw it coming, others didn’t understand. they thought i was changing, or that i was going against the word of god. however, it seems like you’re doing good! you’re trying, and honestly, that’s the best thing you can do.
you’re going to offend her. you’re going to call her by her birth name. you really can’t avoid those things. my best friend was happy for me when i came out to her, but she made those mistakes as well. of course it stung, but i understood. we’ve been friends for over a decade. it would be silly of me to expect her to use all the right names and pronouns all at once.
just try. eventually it’ll become a habit. most of my friends (the ones that didn’t abandon me, at least) are used to it now. i’m a guy to them. it just takes some getting used to, and that’s fine. i’m sure she’ll understand.
(also! personally, i don’t like being told “you pass very well today”. i’d much rather hear “you look handsome today” or “wow, that shirt looks great on you” or something like that. i’d be careful with things like that. don’t tell her that “i wouldn’t be able to tell if i didn’t know you!” but instead compliment her on her hair or clothes.)
